To date, I've pro'ly seen tens and thousands of film already. Not that I'm exaggerating, since the age of two I was already watching every goddamn film my father and my uncles were watching. By the age of four, I already had my name registered in video shops within the city. When I turned seven, I was watching five to eight films every day after school hours. I do not know why I did that, pro'ly because I fear boredom?
Boredom is one of the existentialist theories, in fact. It is defined as “an unpleasant, transient affective state in which the individual feels a pervasive lack of interest in and difficulty concentrating on the current activity.” It is not merely feeling discomforted because you have nothing to do, but because you do not know which specific activity you can latch on.
Through the years, I've done a lot to keep myself out of boredom. I've engaged myself into a list of activities which to my relief has always kept me going.
This then may be the reason why my preferences come off in a rather huge range--I can basically say that I don't limit myself with previous experiences, but continue to try new things, if possible.
Take my interest in music. It ranges from pop to blues to jazz to aria to classical to world beat to hip-hop to rock to whatever sounds good.
I can probably say that I'm living a thousand lives. It's like applying the theories of quantum physics: that each one of us can be whatever we want to be--whatever, however we choose to become.
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